There's always going to be another mountain, and I've learned that making it move isn't about brute force, but about persistent love, unwavering commitment, and a resilience that surprises even myself. Our journey with PNES has been the most challenging uphill battle I could have ever imagined - a landscape of unexpected turns, steep inclines, and moments that test the very fabric of our relationship.
Some days, it feels like we're climbing with weights tied to our ankles. The workplace trauma that triggered Tim's condition, the relentless health challenges, the constant uncertainty - they're like heavy stones we carry, threatening to pull us down. But we keep moving, one step at a time, refusing to be defined by these burdens.
I'm always going to wanna make this mountain move. Not through anger or resentment, but through love, through advocacy, through a fierce determination to create understanding where ignorance once reigned. Each day is a deliberate act of resistance against the systems and attitudes that tried to break us. When I walk into the workplace that caused so much harm, I'm not just an employee - I'm a warrior, armed with compassion and an unbreakable spirit.
Sometimes I will have to lose - lose my expectations of what our life was supposed to look like, lose the neat narrative I once imagined for us, lose battles but never the war. These losses aren't defeats; they're transformative moments that reshape our understanding of strength and resilience. Each setback becomes a lesson, each challenge an opportunity to grow closer and more understanding.
In our gaming sessions, where I fumble with controllers and Tim laughs at my clumsy attempts, I'm reminded that this journey isn't about perfection. It's about showing up, about being present, about finding joy in the smallest moments. Those pixelated worlds become a metaphor for our life - sometimes confusing, often challenging, but ultimately beautiful in their complexity.
It isn't about how fast we get there. It's about the quality of our steps, the depth of our connection, the way we support each other through every twist and turn. When Tim laughed - that precious sound that broke through ten months of silence - I'm reminded that our climb isn't just about surviving, but about truly living.
Our advocacy becomes another path up the mountain. Speaking out against workplace bullying, raising awareness about PNES, challenging the systems that marginalize and misunderstand - these are not just actions, but a profound statement of our love and commitment. We're not just climbing for ourselves, but for everyone who faces similar challenges.
The mountain of PNES, of workplace trauma, of societal misunderstanding - it's steep and often treacherous. But we've discovered something powerful: the climb itself is where transformation happens. In the struggle, in the daily choice to move forward, in the moments of unexpected joy and connection, we are becoming something stronger than our challenges.
It's not about reaching a perfect summit. It's about the courage to keep climbing, to keep loving, to keep believing that our journey matters. Every step is a testament to our resilience, every moment a celebration of our bond.
It's the climb. And what a beautiful, challenging, extraordinary climb it is.
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