The Security of Being Loved
One of the greatest gifts God has given me over the years is the slow realization that His love for me has never depended on my ability to love Him perfectly. I wish I could say that I understood that truth when I was younger, but if I'm honest, I spent many years believing my relationship with God rose and fell depending on how well I was doing. If I was reading my Bible faithfully, praying consistently, and feeling spiritually strong, I assumed I was close to Him. When life became busy, when I struggled with doubt, or when my faith felt more like a quiet whisper than a confident declaration, I wondered if somehow I had disappointed Him. The last couple of years have gently dismantled that way of thinking. Walking through Tim's journey with PNES has taught me that faith doesn't always look strong. There were days when my prayers were little more than, "Lord, please help us." There were mornings when I opened my Bible not because I felt especially spiritual, but ...