My Beloved, My Strength

My heart aches as I watch you in the grip of another seizure. Though I know these episodes are not threatening your life, it's still utterly devastating to see you suffering so profoundly. Your body twists and convulses in ways that seem inhumane, as if some invisible force has taken you hostage. I feel powerless in those moments, wishing I could absorb the pain and trauma for you.The aftermath is almost as brutal - the confusion, fatigue, headaches, and emotional turmoil that linger like a dark cloud over you. I long to take that darkness from you, to be the steady light that guides you back to peace and comfort. You have walked through so much already in this battle with PNES, yet you handle it with incredible courage and grace that continually amazes me.Watching you struggle is one of the hardest things I've ever had to face. The man I love brought low by this insidious condition that has tried to steal so much from us. Yet in your suffering, I also see resilience, determination, and a strength of spirit that can only be fueled by God's sustaining presence. You fight this battle not just for yourself, but for our family, for our future together.My love, you are the bravest person I know. On your worst days when the seizures feel unrelenting, you still strive to be present for me, to keep me hoping for healing. Your tenacity and perseverance put the struggles of my day-to-day life into perspective. If you can endure such affliction with faith, courage, and even joy, how can I do any less?You are my inspiration, my rallying cry to live each day with profound gratitude and purpose. In your weakness, I see Christ's power perfected. In your pain, I witness the refining fire that burns away the temporal to reveal the eternal. Your life is a testimony to the God who promises to never leave or forsake us, even in our darkest valleys.I will continue to stand by your side through every seizure, every setback, and every small victory. My arms will be the refuge that catches you when you fall. My voice will be the one calling you back from the abyss with reassurance of my unfailing love. We are in this fight together, and with the Lord as our strength, we will prevail. You are the warrior who inspires me to battle relentlessly for our family, our marriage, our beautiful life together. I love you, always.